i've lost the urge to blog. i'm depressed. in dilemma. haywire.
i just wanna cry.
i'll be back when i'm all better.
MiZNaTzy | 5:47 PM
chicyearningforthatthangI'm the chick with the hot ish, manolo blahnik,
Jimmy choo kicks, killin' it, who you with?
Me & my girls at the party with the diamond zinati's
I'm that classy mami with the Marilyn Monroe body.
I'm that fly chick 5*6 Marc Jacob mini
Ghetto fabolous, glamourous, its effortless
Make up light, we with my pastel luis
Designer scarf, work of art, rockin' vintage Gucci
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
My nails my hair my diamond rings,
Shining with all my fancy things,
My crib my car my clothes my jewels,
Why you mad? Cause I came up and I ain't changed.
I'm that girl wearing chanel pearls,
Chandeliers in my ears from Bailey Bank and Biddle
Ya feelin my style, ya feelin my flow
Hair sheek, smells sweet, like flow to flow?
I'm the lady sipping baileys while I strut like a model
If the ladies wanna hate me I jus send them a bottle
I kno I got it but don't flaunt it even though brothas want it,
Dancin' dirty while I'm flirtin, 'cause he' checkin' up on me.
in da club - beyonce
oh speaking of which, i suddenly felt i wanna par-tay! been a while since i last club. i miss the times where me and my chics partied hard and we dressed to kill. grr. miss reggae night, mos, coccolatte, dbl o and and club momo! *shrugs*
MiZNaTzy | 11:41 PM
sick of it.
what is the use of apologies if one does not learn from one's mistake? why even bother repeating that word sorry, when all that it entails is a repetition of the deed that warranted it? why demean and de-value that sincere word which could save oneself from condemnation? why say it when you do not mean it? why do you trust that it will make everything ok again, when you yourself do not believe in its true value and live by it? why even bother?
and why do you claim to be alone when that solitude is self-imposed? why claim that you are alone, when that loneliness you bring upon yourself as an effect to your actions? why do you enoble that state of being which only arose from your lack of grace? you justify your ways by justifying your feeble self.
you really think too highly of yourself.
you are really, simply not worth it.
and you refers to me.
MiZNaTzy | 1:01 PM
if i can't have youi must admit that azfar has got a very boyband-ish and soulful voice. he sang to me, "this i promise you" and "januari". and i'm smitten. grrr. screw you ken lim for saying "NO!" to him during the round 2 of singapore idol auditions. you don't know what you're missing.
MiZNaTzy | 6:15 PM
bowled.conversation with mom made my day. she truly understood what i am going through at this point of time. and she gave me her full support. i heart you mom.
on the sad note, dad's currently in germany for his business trip. he's gonna be away for 2 freaking weeks. argh. i miss him.
finally done with my soci essay after few interviews and researching. sorry guys i couldn't have the face-to-face interview since i'm racing against time. i owe you peeps ben and jerry ice-cream. heh.
oh and i got 30 out of 40 for new media test. sometimes i amazed myself.
and before i forget, i have political ideologies essay to finish up. i'm a struggling undergrad.
pearl harbour part 2 tonight. josh hartnett *swoons*
MiZNaTzy | 3:27 PM
love?
watching moulin rouge can just make you believe all over again how beautiful love can be; and yet it also reminds of how painfully harrowing it can be to lose that person you've sworn yourself to. then when it ends, you just plunge back to real life. oh well, the moment when you suspend belief can make you happiest.
the movie never fails to make me amazed at how cinematic and dramatic it is, i love the costumes and the screenplay as well. it also never fails to make me tear. especially when the comic screams at the end of the play:
the greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return. i don't know why i always tear at that part of the movie. maybe because it's my subconscious telling me that it's probably what i believe in too, just that i'm too practical and pragmatic to admit it.
imran messaged me asking, "tasha, are you attached?". "No and why?!" i replied. then he told me that he's going thru some shit with his girlfriend that he couldnt' salvage the relationship. i was very confused by the question he asked me. in my mind, i was like, "oo'ohhh are you gonna make a rebound?" please NO. i'm not gonna go thru this piece of shit again. shooo go away!
on a prettier note, i got no school tomorrow. hurray!
toodles everyone!
MiZNaTzy | 10:19 PM
just a lil' bitoh so tomorrow is v day uh. the walkaways of NUS are decorated with hearts and it's so errrm, mushy. i swear i'm gonna stay home rather than being a spectator in town ogling at girls holding big bouquet of roses or huge teddy bears. yes, i envy those girls. how i wish i am in their shoes. well, sometimes i envy couples. but the envy only lasts for all of five minutes till I'm reminded of how exhausting and emotionally draining it is to keep the fire burning, to keep convincing yourself that you've found a good one (despite the rumours and the suspicions), to keep trying to make someone else happy even if you're unhappy, to keep saying "I love you" when all you really want to say is "Fuck you". haha. =)
school's been busy busy busy. 2 essays due this wk and another the next. history midterm due. and the best part is, i'm way ahead of my ps readings. political ideology group meeting tmr. such a dread.
i miss him. 10 more days.
MiZNaTzy | 11:28 PM
i'm proud of you.a big congratulations to the bro for his splendid results. he bagged a total of 6 distinctions and 2 b's. the journey to the spectacular results was no easy feat.
i'm so proud of you boy!
MiZNaTzy | 9:00 AM
rollercoaster ride!serves me right. i'm feeling the pinch every second, every minute, every hour and everyday. and it's only the first day.
don't take me for granted.
MiZNaTzy | 7:12 PM